A moment to remember....

semua kenangan kt sek ni x mungkin aku lupakan........

That was my 2nd school I did practical.It was like home....the children...the teachers...the staffs..they are so nice to me. (that was my first impression).After all.....it turns like this,,,,,,

kelas pertma yg aku msuk was year 3. Mula2 mmg aku get excited cuz I think they r cuties.Then...the journey begins. drang really excited tgk aku...dun know if I'm so attractive to them.(haha...^_" ). bile aku introduce myself and tell that I'm going to teach them for 2 months, drang mkin excited..and started making noise. aku...aku btl2 x phmla ngn bdk2 ni.huhu....
second day aku msuk clas tu, drang mnjerit lg bile aku msuk. so,aku pn startla lesson aku ngan plan yg aku dh wat.
that time aku ajar "Electricity". punyela x ckup tgn aku bwk sume litar2 kt lab sb nk tnjuk kat drang. then, bile aku nk bg bhan kt each group, keadaan dh jd chaos sket....n aku plg x than sgt ngn sorng bdk ni. kuat btl pg toilet n berjalan.x smpai 5 second pn..he will not at his place.ade skali tu die ckp kt aku:

me : ey, kmu nk ke mane tu???sit at your place and listen to me!!!
he: ala teacher....sy nk pg kt tmpt kwn sy skejap,,,ade hal nk bncang.
me : awk nk bncg pe??sy x sruh awk bncg pape lg.
he : ala teacher ni....skejap jer....skejap je..(smbil wat muke seposen)
me : x boleh!!! teacher ckp dduk tmpat awk.dgr ckp sy,or awk nk kne pmbris ni!!(wat muke garang)

...at first aku lega die ikut ckp aku,then,bile aku pndg skali lg....he's gone!!bile aku cri,ade kt tmpt kwn die...really trickyla bdk ni.napela die ni dgil sgt...nak pkul x smpai ati..ank org.
another time,aku sruh dak tu dduk ngn kwn die before start teaching.tp aku plik sgt..die mti2 x nak ikut.die nk jgk dduk kt tmpt die..aku sgtla x phm ngn dak ni...

actly...aku bkn nk cite psl dak ni jer...tp he got my attention...n nme die la aku plg sng nk ingt mula2 and until now....n one more thing,last day aku msk clas tu, I know something bout 'him'.and that thing keeps rolling through my head.hope..he'll not do mistakes in the future,dats my wish.

Another world.....

today..its today..I'm so happy..to be with him..such a great time I ever had.
once again..my heart beat faster.does it LIKING or LOVE???

I know,he'll do anything for me...I do believe him and nver doubt..dats my weakness.
sometimes..I do not know myself.missing him like crazy..its what I do.Always waitin on da phone..
can't wait to see him...friends,what should I do??

Does it worth being like diz??....hopefully..he'll not leave me.

-end of time-1.22 p.m

HEY LADIES....

penatnyerrrrrrrrrrr practical...!!!!!.finally aku leh rest gak for one week.risau...really worry psal H!NI ni.ntah apela dose mnusia ni kan.org yg mkn b*** tu x kene.yg x mkn ni plak yg kene.its not fair,kan!!
mula2 aku rse virus ni xdela gile punye bhaya..tp bile too many people die bcoz of diz,aku cuak jgkla.aku yg duk kt negeri yg bnyk virus ni rse x slamt dah.bygkanlah..in one day..3 people die.yg keciannye bdk2 kecik yg x brslah2.

arini,aku pg sekolah ngn smngat brkobarla nk teach dak yer 5 ksyangan aku 2. drang ni nmpk ade smgt nk bljr.tp nkal sket.pas2 bnyk sgt tnyer.every words yg aku ckp,sume drang nk tnye.letih gakla kdg2 tu.but sometimes its fun lyan drang ni.
kerisauan aku psal H1n1 ni bertmbh bile tbe2 ramai plak dak yag dmam n skit tekak kt sek aku. td dak2 yg skit ni gather kat kantin sek. trmasukla a few students dri class aku. so, aku ambk early precaution, pkai mask spnjang lesson aku arini. rimas gak actlly pkai lme2 ni. dahla nk ajar drang. rse cam trsekatje nk brckp. so, trpksela aku kuatkan lg volume suara aku yg pling maksimum smpai aku pn dh jd skit tekak blik.

precaution..precaution...
aku dh cam mak nenek bg ingtn kt dak2 kelas aku ni...pkai mask slalu...tgn tu bsuh slalu...jgn duk dkt2 ngn org x kenal.yg pnting,jgn dkat ngn akula...huhu(jht sket)...tp dak2 ni ssh nk fhm sket..drang nk gak slam ngn aku.biasela..lovely tcher.hahah..(prasan).pas2 suke duk dkt2 ngn aku.kalu xde pnykit ni,aku pn xdela kisah.tp,sb aku tkut sgt kot.yela..sape nk mati muda2 ni.amal pn x ckup lg.idup pn x puas.

then...bile sek aku announce cuti kuarntin,aku pe lg,tersgtla gmbiranye...tp xdela terjerit2 cam dak drjah stu. dak2 ni,punyela excited.kecoh stu seklh.but,at da sme time,aku risau gak ngn dak2 sek ni.kecian kt drang.nt kene ganti sek blik.aku pn xtaula cmner nt.dhla x hbes observed lg.rse practcal ni bnyk ganguan btul.mcm2 hal jadi.

ok.la.seems smpai cnijela aku nk share...mta pn dh mngntuk dah..kite continue next time e...
tgkla...bile aku btl2 free.gd nyte....

-end report-2.03 p.m

1234...

1 2, 1 2 3 4-Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love youThere's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,Piece me back together when I fall apart,Tell things you never even tell your closest friends-Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best I that I've had,I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love youThere's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)I love you.(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love youThere's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)I love you.

dedicated for someone that I love

diari hati..

mlm ini...ku sendiri..tiada yg menemani...lala...(lgu brkumandang di radio)
...aku..tetap di sini..melayani fikiran sendiri..
sepanjang hidup aku..inilah kali pertama aku merasakn aku bgitu sedih dgn hidupku..
aku bingung (@##$%)+celaru+resah+keliru dgn diri aku sndiri.ape yg aku mhukan dlm hidup ini????adakah kebahagiaan itu selalu hadir?adakah tiada maslah yang akan bertandang???
apakah aku harus memikirkan masalah org lain???apakah aku harus menanggung segala bebanan???

dugaan itu adakalanya menyakitkan+mengecewakan+membuat aku lemah....namun,kadangkala dugaan itu membuat aku sedar akan realiti kehidupan ini. aku mula belajar daripada kesilapan.hidup ini x semudah yang kita sangkakan. adakalanya pahit..adakalanya manis.

Ya Allah...kau berilah aku kekuatan+ketenangan yg tidak mungkin aku temui di dunia ini..
semoga aku mampu menghadapi segala dugaanNYA...sesungguhnya,setiap dugaanNYA itu akan sentiasa mengingatkanku akan kebesaranNYA.

ACCIDENT!!!!...

31th of May 2009,

adalah kmlngn pertma yg aku tgk spnjng school break ni...

....accident ni agak dsyat gak...4 person died on the dot.(dipercayai org indon).

time ni aku on the way nk pergi K.L. this accident happened kt highway temerloh.

nseb baikla time tu aku kat lane yg lain.so xdela trsepit ngn jam yg amat dasat tu..

actually nk tgk gak if bleh tlg...tp cam drang dah angkat mayat2 msuk ambulans...so.I just pass by.

11th of June 2009,

still dlm cuti lg. x sngka diz the 2nd time aku tgk accident yg dsat lg.bt diz time scary abes...

pe yg aku nmpk...lori tangki minyk shell btl2 hlng jalan n sebuah satria (dark blue) yg dh remuk habes. enjin satria tu dh terbelh dua.tyr pn ntah tercmpak mne la...

orgnye aku pn xtau hidup or dh mati..tp if tgk keadaan satria tu,mmg dh xde hrapan nk hidup.

dat time aku on the way ngn fmily aku nk ke bndar.ktrang biase lalu kt kuantan bypass jer cuz lg cepat smpai.

but then,x sangka ade accident yg sgt dsat tu.

abah aku trus trun bile nmpk drang kuarkan org yg tersepit bwh kete.aku tgkjela...xkn nk cbuk angkat plak..(x daye..huhu).

thank GOD. org 2 cam xde cdera truk sgt.just kt telinga die bleeding sket.tp aku mmg plik sgt.kete rmuk gile kene lnggar lori cm2 leh slmt lg.tu la kuasa tuhan.

hopefully xde tangki minyak yg bcor.if not,hbes sume kete kt situ..including me.

p/s: kpd sume driver2 yg kt luar tu.."don't drink and drive"...jgn bwk laju2 sgt even kete korng tu dh pkai ekzos turbo ke...modified enjin ker.if korng nk tnjuk khebtan korng 2...better prgi lmbe kt litar je.x kemane nyer..dpt bala adela.

gmbr kt ats ni bkn yg sbenar e..aku x smpt nk ambk yg real.korng nk tau more,bce paper la.

sekian aje story aku for this school break....wanna know more???.....to be continue....XXXX

it is all about practical.....

..practical....practical...practical...
what a tired works!!
it's already passed two weeks that I had to attend school.
only today...I have a chance to write something in my beloved blogs.
my life quite messy during the past two weeks.
the first day I attend to school,everything was so new and I'm like a stranger there.
i'm so nervous actually when the first time teaching pupils there.
class 2D.-really scared me.
i've no choice..i hve to enter that class.it's really...really humalitating!!annoying!!!messy!!and I've got screwed there.they are so naughty.have no respect to me.what should I do???screaming?shouting?scold them?i think there's no point if I do that.just wasting my energy.
so, i decided to teach something to them,unlucky..only few from them are listening to me,the rest are playing around,shouting,running...huh!!what a difficult job!!!
then, i started to think something..am I able to be a teacher?am I able to teach them?am I the worst teacher??should I quit this job??
mybe...mybe this is my first time teaching...as a newcomers, i have to learn lots of things from all of them.i've to try my best.

"God,please help me in everything I do. Please make them listen to me,even just once.

-haz-(9.00 .m)